Conjecture. The formation of an opinion without sufficient evidence for proof.

Yesterday, I did something that I never thought in a bazillion lifetimes I would ever consider myself doing, let alone actually doing it. The capabilities of humanity and it's ability to expand is remarkable. Yesterday, I opened my proverbial “eyes” and relinquished my nugatory emotion of acrimony. I have never felt so internally free before now. I believe it is a mixture of doing my personal impossible or just the outcome, or even the mere gesture of “letting go.” Perhaps a little of each element exists in this equation. If you're on pins and needles at the suspense of my topic, I'll relieve your anxiousness (Ok, humor me..) 

I forgave and even philosophically apologized to someone I once deemed suitable to murder (hypothetically...kinda.) I finally took cognizance of the root of why I continued to hold onto such animosity and it was nonsensical at best. I was carrying erroneous malevolence, sheer hatred, all due to the fallacies of a third party. Not only was it worthless and a waste of energy, it was wrong and I was in error.

As a result of this new found clarity, I toyed around with the idea of contact...making “amends” I suppose. Not yet knowing the significance that would transpire, I decided to act upon it anyway. After contemplating the worst case scenario, I came up with a few interesting theories and decided that catty vindication or a repugnant riposte wouldn't be all that bad. I've already stated that I was in error, and the response I received as a result of my atonement proved that entirely. The words written back to me were kind, honest, respectful, even sincere. What does that mean? Translation: Years of incorrigible behavior all in vain due to someone that has less significance on earth than a dung beetle. Wait, isn't there some kind of ancient mythology idolizing beetles? Someone look that up for me so I can edit that innocuous insult...pretty please :)

It's astonishing how blind we, as humans, are capable of being. So often we hold onto what we truly believe is real, regardless of factual evidence, and refuse to be convinced otherwise. We become pertinaciously reluctant of even the possibility of that belief being false. When in all actuality, all we are doing is limiting ourselves, ridding any room for growth and enlightenment. So basically, we're too afraid to let go of a crappy feeling for fear we might become a better person. (Oh, Americans<3)

Evoking conjecture based solely on emotion and inference. Thus, I will not beg you to change your ways because: A) you're only hurting yourself and  B) you appear far too ignorant to listen and try this proven theory of mine out, anyway...uhm. Too harsh? Don't worry, I'm completely throwing myself under the bus, too. So, do whatever you want. That is merely my speculation :-p